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Here you go.

Just watched a video from a Science Fiction/Futurism Youtuber I like called Isaac Arthur. I always thought he had pretty bad capitalist brainworms, but as it turns out his day job frequently involves working with defense manufacturers. Not good.

Early morning vibes with Gil Scott-Heron and a warm mug of tea.

My goal in life is to be the sort of person where someone would see a notification that I’ve sent them a message and their day gets slightly worse.

I like to think I’m almost there.

The story of the boy who cried wolf, but there was actually a wolf every time. The only problem was that the boy had suffered so many wolf attacks that the villagers were sick of helping him, so they just left him to be eaten.

I’ve had to pretend to be a dude for the last few weeks for work reasons and it’s really sapped any energy I have. I just want to be done with this.

This is also going to be my first Christmas alone, and to say I’m excited for it is an understatement. I don’t have to deal with my shitty family.

CW: major dysphoria talk.

I just want to fall into a coma for a year or two until I’m further along in my transition. I hate everything about where I am right now - having to introduce myself as my deadname, having to pretend to be a man for work, having to deal with the constant reminders that I was born as a fucking man. I just want to do nothing while I transition, sitting in my room alone not bothering anybody taking hormones for two years, before emerging as a woman like a butterfly from a cocoon. Anything else than this.