LowExperience2368
People with office jobs who didn’t want an office job, how did you get to where you are? I am an ADHDer (and yes I know I can’t use it as an excuse) who wants to get into teaching but I’m being discouraged by basically everyone and I also want to consider my options. But I don’t see myself sitting at a desk for ages at a time.
Also, second question incoming. I saw some people on the beach today hitting a ball back and forth with bats that looked like cricket bats but the top of the bat was shaped like a lacrosse one. So imagine a cricket bat with a lacrosse shaped head. Does anyone know what this kind of bat is? Just a special cricket bat?
I’ve had a cough in the morning and evening for two weeks now. Excited for it to go away
A question for your Monday night - how do people manage to push through and get their work done?
I cannot get started on my uni work because of an overwhelming “paralysis” feeling where I cannot push myself to do anything.
Saw the boyfriend today. He asked me why I didn’t tell him how I felt when I gave him his present because I told him it was fine then but sent a text saying how hurt I was two weeks later. So what I took from that is maybe I should be more open with my emotions in the moment. I did say it is tricky for me to pinpoint how I feel and that the emotions and thoughts don’t come to me until I’ve had some time alone. I think this is something I could work on in therapy. I didn’t think alexithymia was something I struggled with but maybe that is actually the case.
I ended up saying don’t worry about the card (he still hadn’t done it) but discussed a little about our expectations about important dates. Didn’t mention my birthday which is still a few months away (does he even remember when my birthday is lol) but he did bring up Valentine’s Day and said we should go out for it which is cool.
He apologised for hurting my feelings too and I just felt overwhelmed and almost burst into tears. I feel weird showing raw emotion in front of him for some reason.
All I can focus on is the way I express my emotions because other people have noticed mood swings.
But all in all, progress.
Happy Tuesday! One day closer to Friday.
Question - what’s your go-to breakfast? Mine is nothing at the moment, or just a protein shake.
I’m at the point of no sleep where I want to drink toilet cleaner and die. But it’s not a fun way to die.
I just unfollowed every account I’ve followed on instagram. Not following any accounts. Don’t know why I did it, but I did. Today has been weird.
Also a couple of days ago, I spoke to bar guy about the playlist thing and he said that lyrics are the last thing that he listens to. He eventually figured out that I was trying to convey something through the lyrics and he told me he loved me for the first time. That was cute.
I also found out that I was known as jukebox girl at the beginning by a couple of his friends because he didn’t wanna say my name.
This reminds me of me. I am never going back to online dating again because it gives so much false hope in my experience. I think all you can do with this person is stick by them and hope that they’ll learn their lesson one day. When you have the “love brain” switched on, it’s really difficult to think logically. Therapy helps and really noticing how you feel.