ReceptorDamage [any]

would that all my useless comments could carry the fash away so easily.

here’s 89, to get you away from the loser number.

deep seated self hatred is hard to get away from. don’t think I ever will. ‘this is me and I hate me. the end.’

I just learned about the guy a few weeks ago listening to a podcast. Now it’s like this fucking cult leader loser is making a posthumous comeback?? What the fuck. (Baader-Meinhoff phenomena. RAF)

ugh, fuck man. Glad it seems to be on the out, at least. But yeah, if it is diverticulitis, it probably won’t be the last time - sorry comrade. Might be worth mentioning to a doc either way. Take it easy.

Sorry you’re in pain. I hope you can get relieved from it soon. It’s actually good that it’s on the left and not the right (the latter could indicate appendicitis which isn’t a concern in your case). I’m no healthcare pro but here is something you might want to skim.

I’m with former president Obama. I’ve had partners, but never a one night stand. I can barely look someone in the eye after only knowing them just one night. Taking off of clothes is going to take a few.

Honest question: with a living space like the one you posted, how are you able to even get close to anyone? I’m not saying that to be judgmental at all. When my room looks like what you posed, that’s when I’m looking down the abyss with no one else around. Makes me wonder what the secret is.

Hey comrade, I know what it’s like to be in a fucked up place and I mean that both literally and figuratively. I hope things panned out ok for you with missing the pisstest a few days ago and also that shit in general starts working out and turning up for you soon. Solidarity from a fellow former/not-so-former user.

Not OP, but extreme depression, especially when coupled with addiction makes it very easy.