I’ve used it for a long time, great tool! The wordsmith instance iirc.

Welcome! Enjoy your time here! :)

I don’t have any now, but when I was younger I really liked Shay Patrick Cormac from AC Rogue.

It was more so just a “I think he is really cool” type of connection. Not sure what I would think of him revisiting his story now, with a more mature personality.

I don’t know about other servers, but do this if you are looking to have your account on the genzedong server.

Open the Element app, or one of it’s forks. Get to the sign-up page, where you’d be requested to choose your sever. It will default to matrix.org, but below that, you’ll have the option to add a different server than that. After choosing that option, enter the address: genzedong.xyz You then choose your username and skip the option to add an e-mail address to your future account. After these you should land in your account. Then you have to follow the steps to be a verified new member, by either answering the questions listed in one of the visible rooms or messaging the admin of your choice, telling them your Lemmygrad username. After a little waiting, you are hopefully approved and are able to use your account without an added e-mail address.

For a more detailed guide, look for the matrix room ad in every week’s general discussion.

Sadly I have been sent to a mental hospital because of thinking about suicide. The depression and anxiety that’s caused by my autism has done it’s thing throughout the 20 some years and I was no longer willing to continue. I am reading about Lenin, that and my family helps me going, but as you would guess it’s terribly hard. If I get out of here, I’ll try to join the party, maybe that will help me with my depression. Tomorrow is my evaluation, deciding what they want to do with me, hoping they will see that it’s my autism causing the depression and they’d let me leave. Root for me guys, please.

Reported

Inexplicable horridness, awfully deep sadness in my heart.

I feel you, I feel/felt the same way. I am somewhat changing in my approach however. I try to stand up for myself and be more assertive in my communication. Try to just get courageous enough to show up, then focus entirely on the subject, try to forget about behavioral aspects. At a certain point you’ll meet a topic or you’ll have something to say, which will allow you to represent/express yourself and from that point on just be yourself, the social interaction part will come easier since you are now known regarding the way you speak up and how you are as a party man.

The second part is tough, I don’t have an answer to be honest, only to try to be a bit more confident in yourself and try to establish at least enough confidence to have a surface level communication and relationship going to operate party tasks and other doings.

I know easier said than done, but nobody said it’s going to be easy. Try maybe not to have too high expectations and know your limits, accept those and work with what you have/can offer. This is my view as an autistic person, but your experience may differ, good luck though, rooting for you! Everyone has a place, if they don’t allow you to fulfill your role, it’s not the place to be.

Spent the weekend in the psych ward voluntarily, just to be safe. Now towards the end of the week, I’ll prolly get my first TMS and then I can be out once and for all. See you next Monday! Have a great week, I think I’ll go to the movies tomorrow, it’s not a fun place guys…

Why would you want to cool your ceiling? /s