I ticked all the boxes in high school. Ironic-but-not-really fascist, incel, anti-LGBT, anti-abortion, pick a reaction, really. Now I’m happily married, father, Kinsey-1, reading theory, with growing class consciousness and looking to build solidarity with those people that a worse version of myself once dismissed as lesser or ungodly. It took leaving home, developing positive and loving male-male friendships, and being told that I was good enough and worth love irrespective of my accomplishments for me to start to develop the capacity to love others in the same way. Those who have traveled a similar path, what did it take for you?
Oh wow… well when I discovered the internet I got into all kinds of consiparcy theories and so on, and kinda developed reactionary views, hate the gays, burn the gipsies, etc. stuff that in retrospect is pretty much the norm for my homecountry. Then at some point I had the epiphany that Im trans, and that started a long journey on its own. I was pretty much a lib at this point. Then I met my ex, and one major thing that came out of this (beyond me being completely mentally fucked up cause of his cheating and heartless discard of me) is to realise the difference between words and actions, and how much more the second matter. Meanwhile, at my work I was observing the same - a huge mismatch between words and action, between our stated mission and what we did, between corporate buzzwords and getting things done. After I got dumped, I started listening to a bunch of podcasts, among them Chapo and Revolutions… the second really contributed to my radicalisation, and it really fit within my newly found worldview about words > actions. Then it was books, theory, the chapo sub etc. And in the meantime there was a lot of seeing injustice in the world, weird class differences in my adoptive country that werent as explicit in my home-country, realising how unneccesary unfair everything is.
There you have it - a transgirl, that got mentally damaged by a cheating ex, that led to her involvement with the radical left. Same arch as with anyone that ever joined ISIS, lol