Just feeling like I’m not trapped and have agency. Not feeling like I’m constantly drowning. Not feeling like I have to occupy myself with things just to keep myself from hearing my own thoughts. Not feeling this soul crushing loneliness and isolation. Interacting with someone who understands me without me having to throw shit tons of background information at them and just wearing myself out without actually saying much or even listening to much. Being able to do things I want to do as opposed to having to do things I need to do all the time. Having the freedom to experiment sexually and behaviorally to figure out who I am and what I like.