When I was a preteen on /pol/ there was a serious fetish for showing affection to your fellow posters, calling each other ‘brother’ and other cheesy shit. I thought when I was a stupid little fuck that these people really cared for me and wanted to know what I had to say, then I became a leftist and I never felt that again. I’ve never been part of any leftist community or project where I felt like people gave enough of a shit about me to forgive even a minor transgression. I feel similarly cold about these people who I am around. Its like in a heist movie where all the characters are brought together for a common goal and once they accomplish it they promise to never speak again. Anyone else feel this?
This is why I’ve always avoided scenes, and people for the most part. A dry and deeply ironic sense of humour combined with not being super open about my sexuality left me feeling isolated. Only really had one good friend and felt like a pretender elsewhere because I feared being ejected from any group I became a part of as I’d seen it happen from the sidelines too many times.
Everyone will have slips here and there the problem isn’t that people are so worried about getting called out that they won’t talk imo the problem is that the only thing compelling people to talk or not to talk is the possibility of a slip up because there’s no banter or interesting conversation to risk it for
