Looking at the recent discourse has made me really upset.
Covid is still a massive problem that is killing people, and almost no one is taking it seriously
It so so hard to do anything when you’re worried about dying, and not in an anxiety disorder way. edit: stop speculating about what medical conditions I have, thank you kindly
I’ve accepted that there is basically nothing I can justify doing during bad weather that involves people outside my 3 person bubble (it used to be larger, but folks have decided to be less cautious without communicating about it) both in a moral obligation and a personal safety sense, and that’s despair inducing because the way things are going this is a “live with it the rest of your life” sort of thing
I want to go out, I really do. I miss hanging with friends. I miss going to concerts and parties and drag and commie shit. But I can’t, and not in a “something is wrong with me” sort of way. I’ve tried to find new social circles who take the pandemic seriously. It’s been an exercise in having my boundaries pushed and my (these next two words are the one part of this post I encourage you to make fun of) evidence based perspective on the pandemic pathologized.
And I know this will be alleviated when the weather outside is suitable for outdoor masked stuff, but god, I haven’t been able to see people besides my partners since the holidays, and there is still months and months left until I can hang out with friends again.
I’m so fucking tired. I can’t keep going on like this without my mental health deteriorating and I can’t stop acting like this without being reckless with my body and abdicating my responsibility to others
Honestly? I think we’ve been beaten, and nobody wants to admit it outright. So we couch it behind mental health and vaccines or paxlovid or whatever, when there’s no reason it has to be this bad. A year or more ago you absolutely wouldn’t have this response, it would have been “wear a fucking mask.”
But now that the death drive has spoken the tune is different. I say that as someone who rarely masks anymore because I simply cannot deal with the social pressure, expense, etc. I stopped looking at the numbers knowing that they would never be acceptable.
I know it’s a semi shitty answer, but have you tried nature? Something you can do alone, but not accessible to everyone of course.
have you tried nature?
Winter hiking, yee. Unfortunately hard to socialize while you’re huffing and puffing
I agree with you about the cope
I wasn’t trying to be shitty, sorry. There’s absolutely something to be said about reconnecting with nature even alone. I’ve also had my personal fill of it for the time, and trust you to make your own judgement there. Apologies if I came across otherwise.
