…uninterested and couldn’t feel pleasure.

Not so long ago I finally came to terms that I would never feel true happiness and joy like I did when I was very young. For maybe twenty to twenty five years I chased after it and all it did was make me miserable and sick. Now I just focus on hanging on and feeling content with it. It’s nice.

EDIT: I see ADHD subs focus on how one can hyperfixate on something then drop it. Many saw it as a failure. I see as a triumph because it means that I was interested and driving pleasure from someone well enough to not only get out of bed but also focus and be passionate, if only for a little while. To me, hyperfixation is a week or two of not having to struggle to get out of bed to just pee.