You sound like a Gnostic that believes that they are having a personal battle with the Demiurge. There are the rules of “spirit” also known as common sense that confine what nature can be. However the rules of matter often discover that the world is stranger than our cultural ancestors presumed and we should update our understanding accordingly. A more accurate understanding helps one understand why something exists. Knowing why something exists can tell you how to make something not exist. This applies to living things, people, societal concepts and all other things. To give up on the concept of understanding is to relinquish one’s power to those that want to keep power. It is the common sense of the spirit that fights understanding that truly limits ones power and freedom more than the limits of matter.
I’m always impressed by the knowledge and academic type responses you “communists” respond with.
I’m just a loner stoner that’s been lost in though for nearly 2 decades and most the stuff people say goes over my head., lol.
Because it’s such a misused word in politics these days. As well as not having a full understanding of actual communism.
TLDR
Its good to learn things. Its good to apply oneself in earnest to the universe to see where they are wrong in practical tests. Both success and failure teach you how the world works. Its better than presuming there is nothing to learn and nothing will ever change.
Perhaps your comprehension skills will improve if you lay off the pot.