Like I think a central state is needed for the first phase of the revolution, but the more brutal aspects is something I just don’t want to do, even if I understand why they did them?
To actually read and understand that theory means to do so. Theory isn’t dogma and shouldn’t be treated as such. It should be treated as valuable analysis and experience, and as a framework, but a key aspect of Marxism is responding to material conditions and continuing to develop theory that is applicable to the present circumstances. That’s what Lenin did, that’s what Mao did, and we don’t stop with them.