I just realised that “like it’s your first time” has a positive connotation I guess, but like… motherfucker? Do most people have non-awful first-time experiences of sex? Between garbage sex ed and cisheteronormativity I just can’t imagine. I doubt it was even momentous for most people tbh? Idk.
Why would you do something voluntarily with the expectation of poor outcomes and memories?
What if, instead of that, you just did it because you had a lot of libido at the time and woefully insufficient knowledge? What if your partner was abusive? What if you needed to change your body and did not know yet?
Okay so instead of that, what if we add some context: I was the abused partner, only even having sex because hormones literally gave me libido. My partner took this opportunity to use me as her very own realdoll even long into my transition. There are many reasons why someone would continue to have sex despite being abused; it took me years to be able to say “no”.
You can always just do the least charitable possible read, but that’s not very cool.
