they streamed twice and stopped lol. Felix has stopped doing his bonus episodes on awful TV shows. Virgil half-returned three months later with a side project and Matt’s the only one doing regular streams
Wills dad just died and he’s been dealing with his dads Cancer since January. I mean, it makes sense how checked out he has sounded since then.
I just found out my mom has cancer and I can barely get out of bed to work at my fucking work from home job. Let alone do school work.
I’m surprised the pod kept going given that revelation in the past few weeks
I’m sorry about your mom, comrade. Mine went through the same thing and I have firsthand experience with feeling too shocked, numb, confused, and detached to get any amount of work done. If you need anybody to talk to, I’m here.
Thank you, I appreciate it. I’m just trying to roll with all of it right now. I think they are getting pissed at me at work cause i mainly talk to people on the phone and solve problems but I’m having like an anxiety attack as soon as someone even raises their voice or gets snippy and I like lock up and freak out. Not good. I like doing my job too so it’s not even that bad (without giving too much away I work in the travel business) of work really. It’s mainly talking with boomers in the villages on the phone all day about taking vacations. But like I can’t do it, I’m freezing up.
I made an appointment with a new doc, same office my mom goes to and I intend to actually get on medication for this shit. I’ve taken anti depressants in the past with hit or miss but never anything for my anxiety. It consumes so much of life, it’s destroyed my sex drive completely (like a scorched earth situation), I’m biting my nails till they bleed, I’m pacing nonstop, I can barely have conversations anymore without my mind racing out of control and spiraling. It’s awful, I apologize for the wall of text but you all are super fucking supportive and this legit is a place I can unleash about this and actually have people know what I’m going through and not get judged.
It’s one of the worst situations anybody can go through, I can empathize with 100% of your post. I had the same feelings. With everything falling apart around me, my job instantly became one of the least important things when I was so concerned with what was gonna happen to my mom. I actually ended up losing my job over it because I couldn’t pull it together.
With all that being said, try to do your best to keep in mind that these things are out of your control. You can’t control your mom’s health, but you can try to keep her spirits up by always supporting her and focusing on the positive outcomes that can happen. Try not to let the unknown and the uncontrollable send you into despair.
Getting mental help and emotional support now is a great decision, you’re already ahead of me when I first found out. Take it one day at a time, try your best to compartmentalize so you can keep your income, and give yourself space. But don’t get upset with yourself when you find yourself struggling. We love you, comrade, and wish you and your mom the best recovery.
