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2020 was what made me realize communists were right about everything. Bernie was the only one who even entertained notions of fighting capital, and the Democratic Party fucking crucified him for it, instead opting to boost a faux-Native Reaganite, a racist bougie Indiana mayor, and a cop who bragged about jailing parents. All of these candidates proved to be substanceless as the nomination went to Biden, a barely-functional shambling corpse whose only promise that mattered was “fundamentally, nothing will change.” All around me, liberals responded to this by gushing about how presidential he was and calling him the next FDR, while at the same time screaming that all of America’s ills were the result of manipulation by the sinister Russians.
I’d been tuned into politics since the Iraq War, so I really should’ve learned sooner. Better late than never, I suppose.
The day I learned about how Russia basically beat the Nazis and America rewarded them for the sacrifice by immediately pivoting to economic and proxy war with Russia.
I was poking around Reddit and found myself in some random right-wing subreddit where they had the compilation of all the evidence doxxing “Bike Lock Antifa” and I was like “what the fuck is an Antifa”
Turns out it was a guy who hit Nazis with a bike lock and I was like “that owns, what else are these Antifa up to” and I found the PhilosophyTube video about Antifa and then that led me to /r/anarchism which led me to the Chapo sub which taught me about Marxism, and that validated basically all of my experiences workin shit jobs to make shareholders rich.
I think Standing Rock was the breaking point. Obama was president, and it was impossible to watch this struggle and not see that for him and the entirety of the capitalist class, accumulation and concentration of private capital was more important than anything sacred or even human life itself. It was the most appalling event I had ever (briefly) witnessed with my own eyes, and I saw so little that I’m embarrassed to even talk about it.
The experience broke a rationalist streak I didn’t even know I had. I learned (again, and hopefully for the last time) that your people, your ancestors, and the earth matter a lot. You don’t need to justify your values, because they can’t justify their’s either. They can’t refute what’s in your heart.
I considered myself left but really only had liberals as an example of what left was. I’ve always held leftest views, but I kept them mostly to myself because liberals treat you like an extremist if you dared to be left of Obama.
After Trump won I became more and more annoyed with the way liberals treated the right with kid gloves. They just came across as wanting to lose. Like Adam Curtis said (paraphrasing)- “It’s like they’re afraid of power. You weren’t allowed to have power”
Then I discovered breadtube and later the Chapotraphouse podcast and was like “holy shit, finally, people with teeth” then I learnt that liberals weren’t left and it lead me to investigate more into what leftism actually is and it was like a light went off and everything in the world finally made sense.
These days I roll my eyes at breadtube and chapo but they were a helpful stepping stone to breaking through that fog that liberalism puts up.