I’m lowkey really proud of myself for pulling out of this shit without antidepressants or prescriptions of any kind (which is just dumb hubris, honestly; don’t be like me), and only mild amounts of substance abuse. Oh right haha and a shit ton of crying, like massive amounts, like every day, all day, until I cried myself to sleep. But I finally reached out to people about it, even though it made me feel vulnerable and pathetic, and was amazed to discover I actually have friends who care. People have been inviting me to all sorts of social shit that I frankly would never do usually, but getting outside my comfort zone and being around people I would never normally bond with actually made me see the good in those people, who I usually find insufferable. I don’t know. It’s just like after a month straight of the soul’s darkest night, out of nowhere, the light just broke. Or my brain did.

Either way, I’m happy I no longer want to die! Please let this feeling last :crush:

Samesies but I met a girl at a concert last nigjt and got her number so even less

Don’t be afraid to try living, good things can happen

Let’s fucking goooo :lets-fucking-go:

It was only recently in my own depression journey that I understood the difference between mental health stabilization and mental health growth and that often people give you one when you need the other. Hopefully now that you feel stabilized you can begin the journey of growth that puts all that shit in the rear view (or at least far enough away that when you do feel like shit it’s a fundamentally different and better version of feeling depressed)

Glad to have you with us, comrade.

Hell fucking yeah, love this, glad for you hitting this point in your journey comrade!