It looks like people are having a really rough time lately, in the aims of improving the mental well-being of our comrades please consider this post an open forum to vent frustrations about whatever is bothering you.
If you’re currently having a hard go of it, remember that we here at the 'grad care about you.
I needed this a few months ago. I don’t anymore. The bad vibes are transient and go away comrades. You’ll be fine, and stronger later on. Try to stay calm and focus on the positives.
Bossman is kinda riding my ass (in an unfun way) lately but, like, the prescription stimulants have stopped flowing.
one of my dogs died suddenly today, found him dead on a small ditch (narrow and like 1 meter deep). i can’t stop thinking abt it, i really think i could’ve saved him but i didn’t go to work yesterday (small ranch outside city) and my coworker did go and noticed he was missing but didn’t bother to search for him… we found him today early in the morning and it definitely was recent since he didn’t stink and didn’t feel bloated.
i don’t know if he got bit by a snake and fell into the ditch out of panic, or he just fell into the ditch and died out of panic since he wasn’t able to get out… 😢
I can’t help with everything, but I can provide you with some possible hope. I have lived more than one of your bullet points in my lifetime. One thing I can tell you is that if you do end up with the life crippling medical debt, it can actually become a sweet release (hear me out, it isn’t all sunshine and roses but it can end well).
My youngest was conceived while I was uninsured and the state that I lived in heavily means tested medicaid so I couldn’t qualify because my parents made too much (though my child’s mother wouldn’t qualify to be on their plan). Even with near perfect cesarean delivery, that was one hell of an expensive pile of bills that I couldn’t come close to affording. I started to get hounded by bill collectors regularly until I finally told one of them threatening legal action to go for it and hung up. I figured it was another empty threat but it wasn’t and I got served a month later.
I was able to get the money for the bankruptcy lawyer (this is the hard part) and suddenly a whole ton of bills were just not an issue anymore. My credit score actually improved, ever so slightly, from the discharge.
It did take me damn near a decade to fully recover in terms of credit score and finding better work but I was able to get a high interest auto loan to get a bigger car that fit the whole family and was more reliable than my previous vehicle afterwards and also eventually relocate to an area with better opportunities.
Hang in there comrade, maybe see if any mutual aid exists in your area. I know it is difficult, but it can get better if the cards happen to fall just right.
Also, I totally understand dealing with reactionaries and fascists within your family. I don’t talk to the vast majority of my extended family because they’re either neo fascists or pompous liberals. Find yourself a group of comrades and make them your new family.
