Alizarin [she/her, des/pair]
Can relate, shit really sucks :(
Feel like shit, things have never been good. Feel like they’ll never be good.
Just feeling like I’m not trapped and have agency. Not feeling like I’m constantly drowning. Not feeling like I have to occupy myself with things just to keep myself from hearing my own thoughts. Not feeling this soul crushing loneliness and isolation. Interacting with someone who understands me without me having to throw shit tons of background information at them and just wearing myself out without actually saying much or even listening to much. Being able to do things I want to do as opposed to having to do things I need to do all the time. Having the freedom to experiment sexually and behaviorally to figure out who I am and what I like.
That shit really sucks. I hope things get better for you. Alienation of labor under capitalism is a fuck. Reach out to the people in your life even if it seems like they don’t care(unless they’ve been toxic, then fuck that shit), maybe they’ll surprise you, worth a shot either way. Hope you can get the help you need
Inb4 people start hodl-ing hexbear accounts and selling them as NFTs
Cold turkey is the only thing that works outside of stuff like buproprion