Why is that?

Listen here, mf…

It’s missing the autism circle. They naturally gravitate towards tech jobs, they are also overrepresented among trans people.

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I guess enemy was probably a poor choice of word(wording is hard). Somewhat like, I don’t feel good enough, and I definitely don’t look the part. On the physically masc - femme scale my body is like 99% masc

Fortunately, I do have a great therapist, who is on their own gender journey.

Another issue I’ve come to realize is basically always feeling like the one person trying to force themselves into a group they don’t really belong in. Even ones I was in for years and felt pretty close to the people in it. Like the thought is always there. “I don’t really fit in here”

Thanks for the kind words!

I’m beginning to realize I have a few unrealized internalized things going on.

That is a good way to look at it. Although, I don’t know how well I relate to anyone in terms of joy 😂 Until a few years ago I didn’t realize how depressed I had been how much of the time,and til the last month or so have never felt less depressed for this long.

A lifetime?!

I think I’m realizing internalized opression(the generalized term b idk wtf all is going on) has been my hold up for a while. Like I’m spinning my wheels but can’t make and progress.

Also, as dumb as it may sound(always discounting myself) it’s always kind of an honor to have you acknowledge a post. I thank you girls so much for this instance! It has been a life saver these past couple of months.