Therapy and getting on for undiagnosed bipolar 2 helped immensely. It helped me figure myself and as soon as I wasn’t an angry resentful Man, lo and behold more people wanted to be be around me and loneliness slowly started becoming less of an issue.

I’m still struggling with an opiate addiction, but I treat people much better and choose to examine myself before reacting against other people.

Loneliness and atomization is a very dark place to be though, I don’t know if I could handle going back.

I’ll keep that in mind. I always thought there was such thing as a benign abscess, and I’ve had some that have cleared up on their own. Drs will often treat you like shit or second class when they know you are in there for drug use.

For now I’m just going to keep an eye on it. I have no fever and there are none of the telltale red streaks.

No problem. I figured this would be a divisive thread, but I’m also happy to lay it bare and admit I was a piece of shit back then.

Dudes annoying. Sorry? I don’t flex my politics that’s a stupid flex. Dudes just irritating. And he seems fake

It took some talk with a therapist that I’d rather not bare out on this thread. I figured quite a few things out in therapy and with the help of psychiatry

Thanks man. It’s hard to share this shit. It’s not exactly a nice portrait of myself.

it’s basically like this, you could extend it to anything I was interested in though. Was definitely a piece of work back then.

I don’t know what to tell you, I’m sorry. I was not a good person back then. It took fixing of issues that had with myself to steer me right and realize I’m not owed women’s bodies.

I had a flawed perception, I can’t like turn back time and change that, I can only move forward and be the best person I can be and treat people like human beings

I didn’t say that. I was definitely resentful about it and felt excluded for a long time about it, but my thinking was distorted back then.

It wasn’t the correct like of thinking for sure, it took some serious self examination to correct.