LowExperience2368
I am really struggling to research for a uni assignment and actually find gaps in the literature that are actually relevant. I am annoyed and sleepy. Everything is just going in circles.
So my plan is just to write shit and learn from the feedback (attempt to at least)
I wanted to be cut out for academia but I don’t think I will ever have the critical thinking skills :(
Yay fixed mindset
I’m at the point of no sleep where I want to drink toilet cleaner and die. But it’s not a fun way to die.
Tried talking to my parents about how shit my mental health is.
I only got to talking about how I feel, not some of the things that were bothering me and was met with,
“Grow up!”
And
“Oh no, is an ant crawling on you again,”
And
“Just get off social media,” (which I have reduced my intake of)
So I don’t know if I’m just bad at communicating how I feel. I think it’s because I got emotional, and that made them might’ve made them feel threatened.
I’ve been thinking about saying the special three word sentence to my boyfriend, but some things are making me apprehensive. We haven’t been dating for that long (only three months) and I don’t say those words to just anyone. I might feel love towards him, but to me, love is also a commitment that you make with the other person. Seeing as it’s still very early days, our future together just seems not too certain (but people can change at any point).
I have decided that one of the presents I’ll give him for his upcoming birthday is a list of things I like about him and I might slip it in there :)
So I’m going to get tested for coeliac disease. If it turns out I do have it, it’s gonna be a little tricky to navigate at first, but I’m happy to give up pasta and bread if it means I have a better quality of life.