I just joined this community and I was happy to find it because I was very active in the CTH subreddit. Now I immediately see a post that teaches me a lot about issues in this community. I see many people have gotten cynical already with this community after months of struggle, mainly due to transphobia. I hope I can learn from this and take more understanding into mind already from the start. I hope at least some of you who experienced these shitstorms, that there still is hope and these are harsh growing pains, especially for our trans comrades.

Thank you comrade

That sucks. One of my best friends was someone I had a huge crush on and we did date and became friends afterwards. In the beginning, I was considering cutting off contact because I still had a crush on her and I would hurt myself being friends and not really genuine. However, the things that made me love her were also exactly the things that made her such a good friend of mine. So I figured it could easily become a great friendship if I were to set my feelings aside, which it did become. However, I think wouldn’t have been able to if I wasn’t seeing other people romantically and sexually. But your situation is admittedly harder because you didn’t have a romantic history which makes being open harder. For example for me, it hurt seeing her date other people and have a relationship after me, but while I needed to get over it because we’re friends, she respected me not wanting to give her advice on what to do with her crush because it still felt slightly painful at that time. Furthermore, I didn’t live with her, so I wouldn’t be confronted by it constantly. Your own home should be a place where you can feel safe and comfortable also for your sanity and this situation is not healthy. However, like you already do, you don’t blame her, like you shouldn’t. However, I feel like if she is one of your best friends I think you can say to her that you have developed feelings for her that are, yes, your own to deal with and don’t expect her to reciprocate nor does she need to feel restricting her dating life because of it since you both are friends. But, that it is hard for you if it happens so clearly at home frequently when you cannot avoid it, which in turn makes it harder for you to deal with your feelings and accept the fact and get fully comfortable with the fact you two will not be romantic and be good friends. I cannot give much advice. I would also say whether you are or are not able to be open to her about your feelings, it helps seeing someone else romantically and or sexually if that is possible (of course the people you date shouldn’t be a victim of your feelings for her, so always know what you want to have with your significant other and what the other wants and be clear about it).

Inventing Reality

I heard it is basically Manufacturing Consent but published earlier.

Yeah I was thinking about Naomi Klein too.

I read Blackshirts and Reds when I was on holiday with them. I have borrowed that book to my brother. I feel like that is a second phase book for radicalization, haha.

Oh the late David Graeber is a good recommendation. I never read his work because I found his lectures to be quite incoherent. So I hope his writing is much better.

Isn’t his book on the history of debt his better work?

I only read Slaughterhouse-Five. But I will look into it.

The book is unbearably arrogant and is a prime example of how a selection of facts can create a false reality.