gee, why didn’t I think of that!? Sorry, I don’t mean to just write off well meaning advice, but really… it’s not like I haven’t tried, over and over again, to just not “do all that”. I guess people who aren’t in it can begin to understand. It’s like telling a type 1 diabetic “how about you don’t let your blood sugar levels drop?”

I can only feel emotion (other than anxiety and dread) when I drink. Like a lot. I consume alcohol so I can cry.

cw: addiction, suic-dal ideation, self hatred, etc.

I’m too drunk to even post coherently (autocorrect saves me from misspellings). I have been one a binge for the last few days. I can’t think straight. I am so far gone. I don’t want to continue. I know there is work to be done but I can’t do it. Pathetic. And I don’t think it will stave off collapse of humanity anyway so who gives af. I want to help delay the inevitable but I can’t even get out of my disgusting bed with all the bloodstains from cutting myself and then passing out. I think I’m near my end. If so I want it to happen. I want out of this life. I think I’m dumb. I’ve been alone for a long time and alone I’m going to die. I’m selfish for caring whether I die alone. I’m so lonely.

and eats a bunch of Xans

Is there any source, proof or even noted speculation that she’s on benzos? I wouldn’t doubt it if she was, I’m just curious.

There was a thread recently about most lib movies. This isn’t a movie, but an HBO show I’ve been trying to watch. Gentleman Jack. A fucking disgusting libfest. Lesbians = good, and yeah we can agree on that. But The protagonist is a despicable land-owning rentier, exploitational capitalist. The show (justly) encourages viewers to cheer on her gall and wit in the face of bigotry wrt to sexuality, but without missing a beat, it also demands that we all accept the protag’s bourgeoisie, disgusting place in a disgusting hierarchy during the peak of British colonialism. :stalin-stressed:

Ok, that makes a lot more sense, thanks. The way I see it being spun by media of course is that Mexico is footing the bill for US aggression against them. So USians can smugly gloat “ha ha Mexico, you bent over for us once Trump was out of office.” Still pretty gross if it will impede migrant people, even if Mexico views it as supposedly positive infrastructure.

They were totalitarian dictators. It doesn’t matter what those words actually mean, they are well established by everyone who knows anything as true, and I believe them because I know what’s true.

I finally get up the gumption to comment and the damn thread is locked. figures.

The question remains, like I asked @Cummunism why would Mexico pay for that? Is it literally being passed off as being “more convenient” and so Mexico sees it as an infrastructure project? Somehow I doubt that, and you were prob joking but see my user name.

Ok, but still… why the fuck is Mexico willing to pay for it?