This type of stuff has been happening for ages. Spouse had an uncle who punched his own ticket years before Trump/Q. He probably always had some mental health issue but had been fairly okay as a person for a very long time but then started down the FEMA camp = Concentration camp path when Obama was president. Spouse and he were in touch through Facebook where he was slowly posting more and more unhinged conspiracy stuff and emailing right wing conspiracy stuff. Very, Alex Jones “Prison Planet” vibes. Then one day/night, nobody knows exactly because he lived alone, and was found days later by a neighbor after he took his own life.
From what I heard about the details, I do not envy the neighbor who found his body.
Edit: sorry, I think I’m supposed to do a CW if I express suicidal intent. So… Content Warning.
Pretty sure I’m soon going to go out in a very similar way in the near future, only from a leftist perspective of hopelessness and extreme alienation instead of rightwing batshittery. But I suspect the fw people who still know me tangentially will chalk it up to the same thing. So I have a sense of solidarity with people like that (ones who just off themselves, not ones who hurt others), Even so, if it’s racist conspiracies that pushed them over the edge, then fuck them, no sympathy.
Thank you. I will try to comment more often. Not sure if that will change much, but I’ll try. This place really is the only place left where I feel like there’s still a sense of camaraderie or real solidarity.
Thesis: I’m all alone.
Antithesis: I’m not alone.
Synthesis: We’re all alone together.
Have you posted this before? Because I think you and I had a brief interaction a month or so ago. I tried being as cheerful as I could, but it can be hard to convince people who are lonely and alienated that they actually are deserving of love and compassion, and that there is a reason to hope for a brighter future.
Sorry, I just now saw this. No, I don’ t think I spoke with you before, but I could be wrong. My memory is pretty fucked up these days, and I do use different accounts to post a rare comment here and there. I’ve seen other people post similar things too (which is part of the reason I don’t feel so alone here on hexbear), so it maybe wasn’t me but someone else in a bad place? If it was me you spoke to, I apologize that I don’t remember. Whatever the case, thank you. Your compassion is appreciated, and it’s the people like you who make this place the only place on the internet, the only “social media” I ever actually feel comfortable enough to speak to others on.
I’d also like to say that I don’t want you or anyone else here to feel any kind of obligation to convince me (or others who are probably on their way out) of a brighter future. Again, it is appreciated, truly it is. But my despair is the fault of my own failures in life, and much more so the fault of this fucked up capitalist machine, this juggernaut that dehumanizes and alienates everyone. I know (or at least I’d like to think) that I am as you say, deserving of love and compassion, deserving of a brighter future. But many of us are simply just cut off from that, whether we deserve it or not. A little bit of solidarity and kindness, and even just friendly interaction from a stranger on the internet does help with how alone I (and presumably others) feel though, so again… thank you.
Good. Pass those fucking conservative (fascist) shitfuckers, outlive them and do good revolutionary work. Stick around as long as you can, comrade. I wish I had your resolve but I just don’t. It’s already so bad and it’s quickly getting worse, and personally, I just can’t do it. But all the more power to those who can.
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