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I don’t tell my mom something because I know she’ll overreact
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She finds out, we argue for several hours. She’s upset that I didn’t tell her, I didn’t tell her because she’d get upset. Nothing much changes
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Spend the next day or two keeping our distance from each other
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Return to normal, only she keeps bringing up the subject in unhelpful ways and expressing concern over things I have given my answer about multiple times. This makes me even more reluctant to tell her about things
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Return to step 1
Shit’s exhausting. I like living with her well enough most of the time and it’s cheaper for both of us but every so often we go through this cycle and it makes me want to move out.
It was tough for me to fully process the fact that my mom isn’t capable of providing the emotional support I need. I love her but talking to her about how I feel is never productive, so instead I focus on trying my damnedest to be nice to her even when I feel like shit.
I’m not always successful.
EDIT: It’s not like she doesn’t try, and she is reading up on some books my older brother told her to read regarding our ADHD. She’s getting better. And she was never abusive or malicious, just… didn’t quite know how to handle me.
