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avoid pain and boredom.
i’ve got some videogame friends but they’re not local and I can’t afford to move.
navigating social situations is exhausting and feels like self-harm
Honest question, why even bother with communism, anarchism or any form of leftwing political theory if you hate other people? It is just about being ontologically correct?
yup, I said that I hate other people. that’s exactly what I meant. I also love seeing ableism on this website and especially in this com.
Well you at least seem to hate being around them, which is, in fact, incredibly necessary for organization and change? You literally believe navigating standard social situations is, and I quote, ‘self-harm’.
I feel very attacked for asking an honest question, like describing the question as ‘ableist’, to me, feels combative, as opposed to illuminative. But whatever, if you don’t want to answer it, fine.
this is a question I ask myself a lot, because I’m also very exhausted by interaction with people outside of basic pleasantries. I don’t hate people, but I can tell something is very wrong when I spend time with them more than perhaps ten minutes. I’ve done org work and even union organizing, but things had to remain very on-topic, involve a lot of awkward silence (for hours), or else I started feeling very, very bad.
My particular illness has been diagnosed as “avoidant personality disorder” by a few doctors if that helps.
and my personal political inclination is the realization that left-wing politics would be most beneficial to me personally. I hate paying rent, hate my job, and I want better/free healthcare.
This is more understandable to me. I certainly get having anxiety around social situations, and focusing on a specific task rather than socializing, It’s just that, theory without praxis is just navel-gazing, which is fine, but it kinda defeats the purpose of being a leftist, unless you take the option the whole facade will simply crumble on its own (which is possible) but even then, understanding how that will affect your own community is how change is made.
And that’s completely understandable. I’d say that is the general position of most of the misanthropic and ‘anti-social outside of the internet’ people on this forum. That being said, being a Millenarian advocate leads to different conclusions and analysis than being a ‘Scientific Socialist’.
For one, every version of socialism that has ever been successful in the long term is and has been a highly sociable organization. Knowing your community is a huge part of a successful pursuit of any kind of positive change, period. You have to fight alienation with humanization, which is an incredibly difficult task in a society where alienation is the default state of things. The weird thing to me about a rabid defense of isolation is that, even most Millenarian advocates also recognize humanization as the key to success, it’s just that most of them use that as a way to create cults of personality that that attempt to break away from society but cannot escape becoming a reflection of it. A Millenarian advocate for isolation, imo, far more resembles a libertarian or technocrat liberal in their understanding and dealing with people and the concept of humanization, which is how I struggle to even conceive of a ‘communism’ that can advocate for that. Obfuscating the contradiction with mental-health language does nothing to ease or progress the dialectic, imo.
Personally, this is where I find ideas of personal growth to be helpful. Not in a ‘you can suddenly fix yourself and your insecurities and then because of that become happy, successful and wealthy within society’ nonsense way. In a ‘it has been show, scientifically, that you can overtime make improvements within your physicality and social skills, you may never ‘master it’ but the more you exercise it, the better overtime you get at something’. And this is well within a ‘scientific socialist’ framework of understanding, and things that have been advocated for within socialist countries. That doesn’t mean you have to be 100% productive all of the time, but what it does mean is that improving yourself and your skills is something that every successful communist party advocates for. Hell, I’d go so far to say as that is the whole point of attempting to reach communism, it’s to give you more time to do those things that relate to yourself and those immediately around you, rather than get better at making money for an entity that you are ultimately alienated from.
