I have read every single comment in this thread and this guy definitely makes the most sense. Therapy should be the highest priority, everything else will follow.

sure thing. people love to help people who are trying to help themselves.

therapy - that’s the most difficult truth here but you’re right

yes. honestly, this should be the next step. there are many things that can go wrong with the community college classes – classes won’t start for a while: you might get ill, your car may break down, the class may be cancelled, it may be too expensive, etc etc. it feels nice to intend to start taking classes, as this gives you a plan and a horizon, but, in the meantime, it would behoove you to start with a therapist. i would make it a goal for this week to find one (i assume if you’re in the states you qualify for medicaid, which will cover costs) and set up an intake appointment for next week. this could be agonizing, but after you set up the appointment, you will feel a rush of relief.

again, i’ve been in similar shoes; feel free to contact to me if that would be helpful.