I’m now two and a half weeks post-op. Had my first exam today and everything’s healing very well. Still sore and still can’t really get around, but I’m definitely doing better.
Bottom surgery has done me more good than anything I have ever done in my life. The chaotic background noise that’s been in my life since forever is finally gone. I feel truly at peace. I can sleep just because. And I’m simply the happiest I’ve ever been in my life. I smile all the time and I’m more confident in myself. I knew I needed this surgery badly, but I didn’t realize til afterwards how severe my bottom dysphoria was. And now, I’ve taken the biggest step down my personal path of transition and I’m closer than ever to being the real me. Gods I never thought I’d be here. I’m so happy ;w;
I knew I needed this surgery badly, but I didn’t realize til afterwards how severe my bottom dysphoria was.
I hear this from every friend of mine who’s had bottom surgery. Still on the wait list for the clinic, but at this point it’ll be less than a year until i can make a post like yours myself and i’m so looking forward to that!
Super glad to hear you’re doing well, i wish you all the best for the recovery process and a ton of all these happy, happy moments of euphoria i keep seeing with other trans girls post OP.
cleaned out from under my bed, threw out more bags of trash, one more day lived as a trans girl, on more day closer to HRT. the road is so very long but I’m walking it and getting just a tiny bit closer
god i have to get off reddit. i keep looking at trans femme fashion and transition timelines and it’s all these stunningly well passing women who claim shit like “oh yeah this was like 1.5 years hrt” or something, this is only filling my head with bad ideas.
fuck, i got to meet real trans people outside and i don’t even really know where to start, honestly
girl you already passed as a cis woman after 1.5 years HRT and then you got FFS??? you literally just look like a different cis woman now? i am become dysphoria, the layer in bed
I think for a lot of people, even if they already “pass” to most strangers, getting ffs is not necessarily just about looking more feminine, but moreso about just looking different than the face they’ve felt so much dysphoria about for so long.
I know personally, when I look in the mirror I have a list of features I can systematically stare at until I start to feel like shit, and I can’t really stop myself from doing it.
There’s a lot to be said about how comfortable one is looking at themselves in the mirror. It might work for the general public, but if it doesn’t work for you, then what does it matter? It’s part of the reason I am still harsh on myself with my voice even though it passes very well. I want it to sound good to me as well, not just Random Stranger A
That’s very valid and something I never really considered but yeah, that’s fair and kind of describes me come to think of it. Like, transphobia is bad and I don’t want to experience that in public but I want to pass for myself. I don’t want to see a man in the mirror anymore. It’s funny, actually when i think about it enough; I like the idea of FFS but I don’t even think I’ll need it. With longer hair, no 5 o clock shadow, and smoother, drier skin, i could probably pass with relatively little HRT changes to my face. I remember I took the first selfies of myself that I actually liked like 3 weeks ago and it was when I was on a discord call with some friends and the low quality camera I bought for myself acted as basically softening filter and I thought I looked so fucking cute in those
i follow a bunch of communist transfems on tumblr and it’s so much better for my mental health than any trans subreddit is, you could give that a try
One of my two trans woman friends convinced me to make a tumblr but honestly the website is kind of incoherent to me. What the fuck is a reblog? How am I supposed to interact with this website? I don’t know, but it makes me want to go back to hexbear real fast. I got to learn how to meet real people though
tumblr is a website where you just follow a bunch of people who seem neat and then reblog posts that you like and think are worth sharing. reblog is just retweet except you can tag it with things to find later or add a comment
if you have any questions feel free to dm me and ill do my best to answer
ive been meaning to give that a try, especially if its finally time to get off twitter, but don’t know how to begin searching so which ones do you recommend? (or can dm)
During my FFS post op she was looking over my record and said, “you really got everything on the menu, huh?” Literally every single part of my face went under the knife. Jaw, chin, brow, hairline, lip lift, fat grafting everywhere. I had the most masculine face humanly possible. I didn’t pass a single time until after FFS. In high school people told me I looked like Ivan Doroschuk, the safety dance guy.
Also, their photos might not be showing their profile. Out of the trans women who do pass without FFS at least half of them only pass from the front. Its rare for anyone to pass from the side. Passing in general is more common if you’re latina or east asian.
I just looked at r/transtimelines and it made me insecure, I’m 4.5 years hrt, 2 years post ffs. Don’t hurt yourself sis <3
You might be surprised what 1,5 years of HRT can do, but yes, absolutely get off reddit, the trans community there is awful and the subs for transition timelines in particular are really bad for dysphoria. I had a legitimate crisis because researching too much on r/trangender_surgeries and seeing all these before-after pics of FFS amplified my face dysphoria to unbearable levels. That gets better when you stop going there, it’s honestly shocking how much harm that place can cause.
Media hygiene is a core trans survival strategy in this day and age. If you find that content has a bad influence on you, drop that shit.
As far as finding a trans community irl goes, that can be tricky, but it’s absolutely worth it. Nothing helps more than being in a room full of nice trans people, i actually feel normal in such a context. Not hidden in plain sight like when i’m stealth, not in disguise like when i was boymoding, but completely normal just by being my authentic self. That’s priceless. But it can take a while to find an org where you fit in. Many of the cool ones do not advertise that much and kinda piggyback on established queer orgs in the area. Check if they’re using nonbinary-inclusive language or if they stick to outdated terms like “transsexual” instead, the latter is a pretty reliable giveaway they’re truscum. With pride season coming up, you may have more opportunities to find orgs that recruit mostly through word of mouth or by other offline means.
Oh. So if you live in a city, do a search for "Trans discord [city name]. Otherwise check with the lgbt center in the city to see if they have support groups. My support group got me through, idk a year of transition and I’m still going every week. I’ve met a few friends through it too. Once of them is one of my closest friends who I hang out with every Saturday. So yeah
Got catcalled for the first time the other night, pretty shitty ngl. If you expect it to feel euphoric it really doesn’t, it was more along the lines of ‘oh, I have to deal with this shit now.’
Otherwise dealing with the usual spring-special of seasonal depression making my dysphoria worse. At least it’s not as bad as last year’s now that I’m on HRT.
If you expect it to feel euphoric it really doesn’t
I’d imagine it would partly depend on how much of a threat they seem to be? Only time I dealt with something that was somewhat ewwphoric was long before I realized I might not exactly be cis. But dealing probably accidental sexual harassment led to some mixed feelings (one of which was sorta happy to experiencing something I assume was more common for women… and that was a stronger feeling than the uncomfortableness), but like I didn’t even think it was intentional and there wasn’t really any perceived risk of escalation.
On one side, I want to leave to a western country so I can transition safely, on the other side I kind of don’t want to deal with the bullshit of western countries, my degree won’t be recognized, the money I had before would be worthless, I don’t get benefits of being born there, I lose the benefits I have, I might be dependent on some organization and worst of all it’s not like the country would be pro-trans forever, they could just turn around and make it shit for trans people too.
