SALUTE
I have barely watched Breaking Bad
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Let’s have another good week everyone
okay gang, we’re gonna start fielding applications to post the mega for next week! we’re gonna start making a list so we can book this a few weeks out so even if you don’t get it this week your time to be The Megathreader will eventually come. go ahead and post below if you’re interested
dysphoric day and crotch shaving
Gf was afraid to sleep next to me last night. Essentially still gendering me as a boy and afraid I would be horny in the morning and she’d feel pressured into sex.
Snuggling at night was the middle ground we found during our last argument. Not every night but I requested we snuggle a few times a week so we could have physical intimacy. The first night went great and I woke up feeling more bonded and secure.
Last night we tried and she was scared so went to sleep in her room. Even after telling her I’m barely getting morning erections in the morning and that I had no intention of asking her for sex when we woke up.
Feeling like I have to do so much to not get coded as a boy. Change my voice, take out a loan to laser my face, etc. And that no matter what people who knew me as a boy are still going to see my dead name when they see me.
Thought I would shave my crotch since I need to for laser tomorrow. And hoped the shaving would help.
Staring at my penis and testicles for an hour has made everything worse. When I used to shave down there it felt kinda sexy. Right now I just feel like crying.
Gettin’ emotional thinking about how much I love my foster kittens and getting worried about anything bad ever happening to them or having to adopt them out to people eventually
One of them that used to be skittish let me rub his tummy and scritch his widdle head and pick him up and hold him and he purred and I may or may not have teared up a little
watching Demolition Man and roasting it alone… i wish i could summon computer gays to watch it with me
venting about some unexpected ptsd stuff (surgery regret)
I haven’t gotten blood work since I was in the hospital almost 2 years ago. there are a lot of things I was aware of having trouble with after everything happened, but I haven’t been to a big medical facility or had blood work since then. I figured I preferred not to going to a facility because it’s annoying and outright didn’t get blood work because it’s not my favourite thing to do
in reality, that sinking feeling in my stomach happened as soon as I got the facility and I found myself in a fog as I struggled to stay focused. when I sat down to get my blood work it turned into actual dread and I very embarrassingly started tearing up. I’m sure the technician just thought I was nervous, but that wasn’t it. I was able to hold off sobbing until I left, but the annoying tears and sinking feeling took a while to go away
just feel embarrassed over all of it
