I’ve just completely become fucked off from transitioning. I’ve spent the last year being called Sir working retail to pay rent on a place I don’t even like, never having the money to pay for shit like electrolysis, etc. I lost my spiro and don’t really even care. I stopped taking my estrogen a couple days after I finally refilled my prescription and got it shipped to me. I care less and less by the day when people misgender me. It’s actually made me feel kind of jealous and hostile to hot cis-passing trans girls. And I have become so fucking alienated from the trans “community.” I can see the joy leaving people’s eyes when they think they’ve met another person like them and then find out I don’t want to be friends with them and I’m a piece of shit. I don’t know why I’m like this and I wish people would understand. I’m not a bad person. Am I?

Am I?

For a lot of trans people this is part of the journey, and its important because it allows you to discover what is really you and what is hosted upon you by society.

So many trans people struggle with imposter syndrome and I blame the monetization of trans stories for that as it creates a railroad for what the proper trans narrative is and that is not helpful and quite dangerous.

Seek out gender expression that makes you feel empowered and happy, with that you can make no errors. For what reason would we embark upon such a dangerous and sapping journey if not for the freedom of self.

Love to you!

I have some good news and some bad news.

The good news is, you’re already a girl.

The bad news is, you’re Not Like Other Girls