I’ve just completely become fucked off from transitioning. I’ve spent the last year being called Sir working retail to pay rent on a place I don’t even like, never having the money to pay for shit like electrolysis, etc. I lost my spiro and don’t really even care. I stopped taking my estrogen a couple days after I finally refilled my prescription and got it shipped to me. I care less and less by the day when people misgender me. It’s actually made me feel kind of jealous and hostile to hot cis-passing trans girls. And I have become so fucking alienated from the trans “community.” I can see the joy leaving people’s eyes when they think they’ve met another person like them and then find out I don’t want to be friends with them and I’m a piece of shit. I don’t know why I’m like this and I wish people would understand. I’m not a bad person. Am I?

Am I?

Look at how much cis wlw dont get about other women. it’s not a secret handshake club or something. That in particular helps to hammer in that no one really knows what they’re doing in life and that includes being woman, i.e. you’re doing fine sweetie