BigDaddy [he/him]
It does but goddamn there is something beautiful about human life. Isn’t that why we all strive so hard, against all institutional and cultural forces, to promote a higher standard of living? Because we recognize the inherent beauty and possibility of life itself? The left needs to emphasize pleasure and connection–we’re all so isolated that we forget how beautiful life can be.
Yeah, girlfriend wouldn’t expect any $ from the other side jobs I did. It just seems that because I work for my landlord, and because I chose to have the landlord take my earnings out of our rent for convenience, it sounds unfair because she’s “paying more for rent.” Someone else said it’s just our lizard brain logic lol.
I’m in graduate school to be a therapist. All of the students, and the professors, acknowledge that managed care/insurance is absolute bullshit and limiting; however, we’re told we have to learn to maneuver the system in order to work. At least at my school, there’s a large cohort who critique capitalism and pretty much recognize how solution-focused therapy, CBT, etc. are just tools to be able to create functional workers–professors laugh and agree–but there’s little discussion about what to do about it.
If I’m being totally honest, as someone who has been in therapy since 15-years-old, in-patient rehab, IOP, etc., what helped me the most was using mushrooms therapeutically and connecting with nature, meditation, and reading spiritual texts (Taoism, Mahayana Buddhism). I am embarrassed to admit this, as I’m well aware of the pitfalls of “new age” thinking. But it took something radically different for me to see the bigger picture. Is it possible to spawn this kind of change through talk-therapy alone? Probaly not. Mental health research is not making any important discoveries (apart from neurological advances), things are getting worse. Labels provide a convienant language to discuss mental health but it’s to complex to narrow diagnosis down to “depression, bipolar, anxiety” etc. As you can tell, I’m frusterated to no end about this and trying to figure out how to create systemic change (or atleast acknowledgement of the problem?) within the system itself.
Am I in the wrong here?
My girlfriend and I live together. I’m in grad school and barely make any money with a GA position. Also, I’m terrible with money and have nothing in savings. My girlfriend has about 4k in savings and gets paid about the same as me for her work.
I landscape on the side for my landlord–$20 per hour. They offered to pay me in cash but I just have them take it off rent. Not so much now, but in the summer months I work roughly 10-15 hours in a month, taking $200-$300 off my portion of rent. I consider this kind-of a part-time job. I thought this was fair since it’s my labor and not easy work–$20 per hour is a bargain (I built a patio, redid two large overgrown beds, etc.)
My girlfriend and multiple friends of hers think we should split the pay evenly since it’s taken off of rent. She said in the context of a relationship, it’s fair this way. In a perfect world, sure, I get that it’s a partnership; however, she’s ignoring the context of me being perpetually broke, having to work unpaid labor through my internship/practicum, and her being better off financially.
Should I split this pay? That would mean I’d only get paid $10 per hour for my labor. Maybe I’m thinking to individually and I am an asshole here but fuck I barely get by as is, I kind-of relied upon this side-gig to pay my portion of things.
Someone tell me to log off. I don’t care anymore. I feel dumb for enjoying the trainwreck. I neglect my own health to stare at a screen and laugh at dystopian memes.
YOU LOG ME OUT. YOU BAN /MAIN. THE MEGATHREAD WON’T LOAD. WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE THIS
Holy shit. My mom came into my room to bring me a plate of chicken nuggets and I literally screamed at her and hit the plate of chicken nuggets out of her hand. She started yelling and swearing at me and I slammed the door on her. I’m so distressed right now I don’t know what to do. I didn’t mean to do that to my mom but I’m literally in shock from the results tonight. I feel like I’m going to explode. Why the fucking fuck is he losing? This can’t be happening. I’m having a fucking breakdown. I don’t want to believe the world is so corrupt. I want a future to believe in. I want Trump to be president and fix this broken country. I cannot fucking deal with this right now. It wasn’t supposed to be like this, I thought he was polling well in Michigan??? This is so fucked.
found on thedonald.win
Credit to @communistfuckface