Probably because you’ve been hurt so much by society as it is today, but somehow you aren’t completely broken, so you still want to try to make sure that nobody else has to go through the trauma you’ve gone through.

Why yes, I also struggle with this. How did you guess

Hot take coming straight from the oven : I don’t think most of us would be here if we were allowed to “grill”. As in, just exist in peace, eat some stuff, have a roof over our heads, find a work we enjoy, stuff like that you know. People are influenced by capitalism, and literally can’t fucking help themselves but become some nasty, mean, annoying little cunts most of the time. If you raise a dog to be an aggressive, dangerous animal, you’ll raise a beast that should be put down, and if you raise the same dog, but in a loving and caring environment, you’ll have a lovely pup that won’t ever harm anyone.

The point I’m making is obvious : we can absolutely hate people in general because of how deeply capitalism has taken hold of them (and of society in general), and yet wish for them to stop being like this one day. When a system brings out the worst out of people, it is absolutely normal to want them to shut the fuck up, and to be left alone with the very few people that aren’t fucking trash on this planet. I can only sympathize with that feeling. Also, don’t feel guilty about wanting to move out if living with cretins starts weighing you down.

people would be less shitty if they weren’t indoctrinated into it and if they weren’t literally required to be unethical and selfish by the society in which they live

also awful systemic shit like transphobia, homophobia, mysogyny, racism, and ablism aid the capitalist class so they’re gonna keep pushing it while they’re in power, there’s no reason to keep othering people based on anything besides ideology after we achieve socialism