Basically being left out of the group but for life 😀
I didn’t find out that this was caused by being autistic for most of my life so I spend the first 20 odd years of my life going completely batshit insane. It’s quite a unique hell experiencing that and having no idea what’s wrong.
I did everything right and they indicted me.
So fucking true - I never understood why people wouldn’t say what they were thinking, or why they assumed I was lying or being sarcastic or doublespeaking. I would catch so much shit over it at school or from family and when I got a diagnosis mid-20s I tried to talk about my experience of this with family. Best I could get from them was “well that’s just how things are/that’s just how I am” in response so 🤷
Just glad a bunch of my friends were/are ND as well and could actually relate & communicate
Love being told “it took me a while to understand you. You just say what you mean and don’t hide anything. It’s kinda weird. You’re too honest and it creeps me out.”
That person is no longer an associate of mine.
I’ve been told “people can change their mind” more times than I can count
Fuck me for expecting people to say what they mean, right?
I’m still coming to grips with this being part of being on the spectrum and I’ve felt this all my life. Only recently got daliagnosed.
For a long, long time, I just marked it up as me being “brutally honest” when I realized I can’t even say white lies to save people from hurt feelings or whatever. It’s a whole nother world realizing how frustrating existing has been trying to wade through what people are actually saying.
I’ve found omitting key information to be a good substitute for fabricating lies when I need to deceive.
Bro saaame about always being called “brutally honest”
Like for instance someone asking what you think of their cooking. I’m a cook. So I’m gonna give my honest opinion and even point out where it can be made better or if made a mistake they might not realize is a mistake in the first place. This is what I would want someone to do if I asked the question.
But no you’re apparently supposed to just say “its really good thanks for making it!” and that just boggles my mind to no end.
This is 100% my internal monologue constantly and telling me to do bad shit to myself.
Mood. It’s so bad that even here - where I can rationally understand that I’m much more likely to find things in common with people - I feel like there’s no point in posting because the things I say have no value and people won’t like me. Lmao, it’s pathetic typing it out.
I think the big thing it comes down to is creating a negative connotation about being “different” in society
Like, I would be fine with being different if the collective didn’t act like that thing in and of itself would make me less worthy of having all of the good in life by default
I’m not sure if this makes sense lol
Wow 15 minutes into browsing TikTok after seeing this post and I got it in my FYP
Yay neurodiversity TikTok