Basically being left out of the group but for life 😀
You can all be in my group
except I don’t have a group
I feel so alienated from everyone else that I despair sometimes of ever making a friend, of ever falling in love. I’m so lonely it’s killing me. Very dark thoughts lately. I don’t know what to do.
I feel less and less on the same wavelength with my old friends. I think it’s part of getting older but it still sucks. I think I’ve just let my brain wander too far out there and now I can’t come all the way back.
I went through an intensely lonely period a few years ago. I know it’s not something you can change overnight, but you have to become comfortable with being alone. That’s not too say you always will be, but you need to be your own best friend. I used to beat myself up a lot, then I started thinking that I wouldn’t talk to somebody I care about the way I talk to myself, and that’s not ok. Learn to enjoy your own company, take good care of yourself, and focus on your well-being. You’ll be ok.
Honestly, I remember having acquaintances in college who had friends that stayed around their place for days on end.
I remember constantly wondering if I was the weird one for having a select few people I hung out with on occasion and still can’t quite figure it out
Love being told “it took me a while to understand you. You just say what you mean and don’t hide anything. It’s kinda weird. You’re too honest and it creeps me out.”
That person is no longer an associate of mine.
I’ve been told “people can change their mind” more times than I can count
Fuck me for expecting people to say what they mean, right?
I’m still coming to grips with this being part of being on the spectrum and I’ve felt this all my life. Only recently got daliagnosed.
For a long, long time, I just marked it up as me being “brutally honest” when I realized I can’t even say white lies to save people from hurt feelings or whatever. It’s a whole nother world realizing how frustrating existing has been trying to wade through what people are actually saying.
I’ve found omitting key information to be a good substitute for fabricating lies when I need to deceive.
Bro saaame about always being called “brutally honest”
Like for instance someone asking what you think of their cooking. I’m a cook. So I’m gonna give my honest opinion and even point out where it can be made better or if made a mistake they might not realize is a mistake in the first place. This is what I would want someone to do if I asked the question.
But no you’re apparently supposed to just say “its really good thanks for making it!” and that just boggles my mind to no end.
